perspective

yesterday I was down and felt so weary and I had no hope
Today I feel just fine
although the situation hasn't changed
I'm still the same
everything is still the same
the same things that annoyed me yesterday still exist
but I started to count my blessings
I knew that being angry when you have so much blessings is an ungrateful act
and I found myself thanking god for the things I have

..

we waste our lives doing nothing,
and when we realize that, it's too late to do anything.

it's really confusing how you feel that something is useless but you still visualize how good it'll be if it worked out
how am I supposed to feel right now
I don't know I'm afraid of being hopeful so that I wouldn't be crushed at the end

but I don't wannna feel despair neither