Emotions Explosion

it's weird how a person could endure so much emotions along few hours. when you get disappointed then have hope , when hope breaks in front of your eyes and it still stays , then the remaining hope fades . but another light shine somewhere in your head to keep you on your way but you still find it hard to go on , then this light wither and you still on your way, without hope, without motive, without reason to continue but you are still going on your way . too weak to take any action , too weak to object, too weak to explain. then something happens and you are over the moon, ecstatic with joy. then you realize you were fool and what made you so happy is not really a great thing. you start to dream about the hope you are looking for, like a fairy tale , you dream about all the good things that could happen to you, all the things you want it to happen . but you still can recognize it as a childish dream that couldn't make you any happier because you are too old to believe in fairy tales , and that the good fairy will come to you at night and make all your dreams come true. you start to feel angry. maybe because you wanted this imaginary world to exist, or because you thought of such foolish thoughts . it won't make any difference , you are angry and your emotions are not getting any better you feel like you would explode with all these emotions but unfortunately you don't. and you find yourself obligated to bear all these emotions until it subside . as fast as it comes, it goes but the experience is never forgotten